I, choose creativity..

In the morning, I found them..

Lately, I’ve been having recurring nightmares..

I woke up, heart racing once again..
clearly remembering the vivid dream where I was running afraid, embracing a hug from an old friend, trying to find something, stories and scenarios painted so vivid it actually felt like I lived it while I was sleeping. Like I was in another universe altogether.

That feeling of longing, hugging, laughing.. felt too real to call it a dream.

Then I woke up to reality,.. gentle light coming into my room through the shaded window, a soft glowing lamp light in the corner and just peace. I laid in bed longer than I intended to, memories from my dream still fresh. As I write this I have forgotten much of it but not the longing, the laughter, the anxiety, the panic, the anger. I still feel it like I experienced it first hand. Wondering, was it really all just a dream?..

Perhaps I ventured into a parallel universe in my sleep, who knows. My mind still at work as I opened the balcony to the fresh morning air, it felt nice.. standing out in nice cool breeze surrounded by plants, I stretched my body, and practiced gentle breathing..before heading down to the kitchen where I brewed myself a nice cup of chai (tea), some toast and eggs (breakfast).. and it started to feel like a normal day again. A gentle, peaceful one..

So I decided to just create something new, take chances for life is too short and I didn’t want the nightmare to dictate my mornings too..so I got to work and I create:

‘A Day in my Life’ reel.

The dreamer in me did it, my first mini vlog, in the chaos of life I created something that I ended up loving. It was insane, and I had fun creating it, learned a lot.

Sometimes it’s easy to give up to nightmares, to lose yourself in the why.. and in all of the chaos sometimes the most refreshing thing you can do is actually create something new.. just like I did.

“To finding creativity, no matter what.”

Letters from the Sketchbook